I was stupid and didn-t know what was right in front of me now

I can't believe I was so stupid n I wish I had this day to do over again because he was perfect for me but i needed to know why he loved me I didn't ask him I told him that he was better than me and deserve more because he did n I can't take anything I wish I could because I would be happy again and I finally had a person who loved me for me and I didn't realize it until it was too late and I know he will never want me back as a friend or as a :( and I am so so so so so so sorry Dustin really I wish I wasn't an idiot n just wish I had more self confidence wish I believed in myself and I wish I saw myself how u saw me love Dustin I am utterly sorry n I won't