Gonna be straight forward. I don’t want nudes I don’t want to deal with bullshit and I usually play the victim. Why? Because people who I talked to or who are interested in me are jerks. People always want to be assholes and be be forward. Sure I get it we’re all unique but I’m not gonna deal with some asshole who doesn’t deserve me I felt like I run a list of exes and continue to have one a month, making me feel like a whore by I’m not. I hate being messed with. Why do people add you, say they live you and the. Say I can’t I’m sorry .
Every day I wonder “am I ugly? Am I not worthy of finding that one guy? Am I going to die alone?” I have the most craziest roller coaster of emotions and when sadness comes I think of those questions.
you can set me off really quickly with your wording.
My flaws always come out as a reason not to be with me
I give up on dating I’ve tried and I’m picky with guys and I just want to cry because of how worthless I am.
I always imagine what the perfect guy would be and our future. I think he’s a gamer, he’s smart, has a future, is older than me but not too old, texts me daily, doesn’t hide things from me and says this to me “I love you”.
i want the special guy and if he’s out there I hope he texts me on snpachat.
Sorry for the long rant but I need to vent